I wait for you
ready to leap at you
from every corner
at every turn
gathered to spring at you
from the shadow
of every tree
this is an ambush
but I am not the assassin
I wait, not with a knife,
but love, heavy, dripping in my hands.
(Francisco Arcellana)
st. clare in katipunan is my all-time favorite tambayan.
i used to make tambay in san felipe neri (mandaluyong), kaban ng hiyas / mandaluyong libary, megamall, and serendra. in st. calre i can sit there for hours and just stay blank. feels good not to think at all sometimes.
since ondoy i haven’t been frequenting st. clare. i do miss it.
—o0o—
famous last words:
“BF took years to make marikina beautiful, ondoy took just hours to make it worst.” -Tado
(source: Philippine Daily Inquirer)
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Our kind has often been boxed in out supposed spaces–the library, the science lab, the arthouse movie theater, the sci-fi convention, the front-row seat in the classroom. but since the 21st century, we’ve taken over… in an attempt to forever alter the course of human history - or at least just make you think about it and smile - i will marshal 5 reasons why nerds are the hottest, most striking thing since the sun - or megan fox.
NERDS ARE PERPETUALLY INTERESTING. nerds are always interesting because of the way they focus on their interests. if it’s you they’re talking to, then it’s just you for the next 2 minutes or 3 hours. and to receive that kind of attention is not only flattering; it’s also charming, intruiging and sexy in an old-school, cary grant kind of way.
NERDS HAVE A QUIRKY BRAND OF HUMOR. they have an odd sense of humor, the kind that makes you laugh and lets you in on something new. nerds have this sense of humor that combine their interests, a dry wit, and a keen sense of what’s going on around them.
NERDS ARE OPEN-MINDED, ETERNAL OPTIMISTS. they aren’t afraid to try new things. nerds love learning more about the world around and acquiring new experiences, so it’s no surprise you’ll have a lot of fun hanging out with them. who doesn’t want a fun date?
NERDS ARE MATURE - EMOTIONALLY AND INTELLECTUALLY - AND THEY’RE SENSITIVE TO OTHER PEOPLE’S FEELINGS. it’s a given that nerds are mature intellectually. they’re also mature emotionally, and they’re in tune with other people’s feelings, probably because they’ve had their share of not-so-nice experiences from other people. they are some of the kindest, warmest, most gracious human beings on planet.
NERDS ARE CONFIDENT ABOUT WHAT THEY COULD AND WHAT TO DO. nerds actually have this brand of certainty and confidence that’s always beneath the surface - silent.
on the 17th, kuya tops and i bought pizza and ice cream as a birthday treat for our team. my facebook account got flooded with birthday greets. my favorite greeting’s from john-joe, it felt like we really are friends. hahaha.
then my 2 ex-officemates carlo and avan visited us in the office to have dinner (with us). that is just the sweetest thing, they just went there cos it was my birthday.
the next day lian, eric and i went to saguijo. lian asked raimund marasigan to kiss me for my birthday. it wasn’t a kiss though, it was a “beso”. but still. it was raymund. the lineup that night was great as well.
oye! happy happy joy joy
the next weekend, micoy’s birthday gift to me was to take me to encore.
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i know, i know, this is just another lame entry, but i haven’t got the time to really write.
good vibes, one love
this is the last of my journal.. i really cried when my journals and planners were destroyed. my soul was there. it was taken away from me.
i am also concerned with my cds and vcd collection, i hope they could still work. specially my sneaker pimps cd — it took me 2 months before i got to see that cd.
our television set and ref worked! happy happy joy joy.
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besides that i have no more complaints. they’re just things.. and a huge attachment to any thing is wrong.
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and for some reason i seem to be way more restless than before. i want a lot of things done before the day ends. i know this is so cliche, but i think i have been living life like it’s my last. surprise surprise.
lastly, i do not have the time to think about the silliest of things i have been seeing these days. no more further comments.
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famous last words:
“so what, i’m letting him enjoy the universe i’m living in. i like it. i somehow get to explore his universe as well.. but the thing is, i secretly wished that we’d be two clashing individuals out to have adventure and serious fun. it’s not the case.. it has always been a one-way thing for me. i am slowly slipping, moving away from him.. and i hope he realizes it before i completely move out of his life.”
“Nothing happens by accident — everything has a cause.”
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the next paragraph that should be written here’s supposed to be my typical bitchslap against the kids these days. it was hurtful so i decided to not post it anymore. ’twas so beautifully written, though. sayang it is so entertaining pa naman.
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my birthday’s coming and i have no wish at all. like the title suggests, everything has a cause. i don’t know the cause yet to the problems i’m having, but with those bitchslaps i do know … God is testing my patience. “issues” (NOT REALLY to me) happen because i just promised God i’d stop the bitchslapping here already. i’ll try to keep my promise.
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i want to write some more but i’m afraid to go freestyle. some other time maybe.
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famous last words:
“i only give out the exact amount of efforts you are giving to me as a friend. so if we are not close, you could ask youself why.”
(oh snap)
there were 3 people who validated what i have been going through.
remember when we almost didin’t make it out of hour house on that typhoon? the last one who consoled me was carlo, my ex-officemate and weird enough one of the closest friends i have right now. we had a get-together last saturday and when we had the chance to talk alone, outside, he casually asked me “kamusta ka na?”. i replied, “eto, buhay pa”, then i broke down. it’s still hard to really talk about it. the flashback made it worse.
it started days after ondoy. whenever i had the chance to rest, the flashback would start rushing in my head…that time when we were still inside our house and i was screaming for help. it wasn’t such a small thing for me, apparently. we could’ve died in there. the door’s the only way out. until now, that flashback keeps creeping when i had the time to think about it. or sometimes, in my sleep.
(so this is how second life feels like…)
i remember i used to be really scared of dying when i was a kid. now, i only think of it like i was about to go to sleep, i close my eyes, then blank.
the good side to second life? everything.
i now see things in brighter colors. i’ve seen the most beautiful thing at our get-together — the sunrise. i’ve been wanting to watch the sun rise for the longest time. next time, imma look for a perfect place to see the sun set.
i now say ‘thank you’ and ‘i am sorry’ at every chance i get.
i am now braver to complete my ‘things to do ‘ tasks.
i stopped bitchslapping out loud. i mean here. in this blog. i stopped writing about the silliest things kids do these days.
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until now i am still battling with the trauma. it’s not easy living life from scratch. this is worse than the time our rented house got burned.
but i am not complaining..
i hope this will be the last time i will ever get to talk about the typhoon.
—o0o—
famous last words:
“Tom, I know you think she was the one, but I don’t. Next time you look back, I think you should look again. “ (500 Days of Summer)
ito ang pinakahihintay ko, ang makakita ng hardcore authentic 80s clothing galing sa nagsipag maglinis ng kanilang mga closet!! laughtrip
shoulder pads kung shoulder pads!
syempre pati hairstyle dapat 80s. tiger look! rawr!
ganitong ganito ang sinusuot ng kapitbahay naming bading pag pupunta sila sa faces o equinox
terno kung terno! ganito damit ng nanay natin pag papasok sila ng work.
san ka pa? i-primary na to! hahahahaha
kami po na nasalanta ay may natitira pang energy at resources para ipamigay / ipamahagi sa kapitbahay, sa donation box ng office at sa rock ed philippines ang nasosobra naming relief goods.
kung kami nagagawa namin, mas lalo po kayo na hindi gaanong nasalanta. matagal pa po ito. mas lalo po tayong kailangan ng mga kababayan natin sa northern luzon. please po.
sabi nga ni ma’am gang — kahit isang lata lang ng sardinas yan, may isang pamilya ka na hindi pinag-isip kung saan sila kukuha ng makakain sa isang araw.
kung kaya po ninyo, sana tuloy-tuloy lang po ang pagtulong. hindi lang po bahay ang nawala sa kanila, pati po kabuhayan.
please, please, help in any way you can.
yes, you.
meow.
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whenever i see those particular place, car, food, song, shirt, scent — it reminded me of you. take care, kid.
